The Powerful Phrase:Come as you are.

So a couple weeks ago I went to a another church with a friend. The worship was good, message was good, but something was missing. I couldnt put my finger on what this missing piece was until today when I had a lovely lunch with this same friend. She went on to explain that everyone in her church expects perfection and that it has, over time- rubbed off on her. We then went on and talked about the power in the phrase, "Come as you are." My friend went on to then say something so powerful- she stated," Sometimes I feel like everything I do at church has to be perfect and thats why its so hard for me to just come before God because I feel so unworthy because im not "perfect" yet! I wonder how many people in the church feel the same way? These walls, this band, this sermon are all trying so hard to be perfect but even with all these perfect things around them, they can still be broken." Wow. Her statement blew my mind. I went on to say to her that "Jesus would rather us come to him broken and in need, then trying to have it all together."     
 And even now Im thinking about what we talked about and I find myself needing to say -Perfection is in itself imperfection. And if we are never broken before God and realize we are imperfect, this leaves no room for him to move in us- which would be a great saddness to me.
So, What should we take away from this? :) You wanna go to church in your sweatpants, DO IT! :) Ive done it before and I will do it again. Because Jesus would rather us Come as we are, then not come at all.

Phobias, Life, and More

Today at my lunch with Steph, (I always get inspired to write when I have lunch with her) we talked about phobias and where/when they started or originated from. One of my major Phobias- Going underwater. For a very long time, I thought the problem came from my childhood but today, while talking to Steph we discovered it may come from a different source entirely. Weird? Well, You may not understand this but to me it is. I took a memory of a time I was playing with some friends in a pool and something sad happened later that day and I made it into a phobia.

The other night at youth group- A friend told a story about a situation in his life and how it was a "Huge burden"- What the group didn't know was that that huge burden was me? He repeated the phrase, "huge burden" about 5 different times... and then I found myself having a panic ATTACK! RIGHT THERE! Right in the middle of youth group! How can I solve this problem? I need to remember how to experience Grace- This guy obviously has forgived me and the only reason I am having a panic attack is because I have NOT forgiven myself. I need to rediscover the grace that God gives and then except it!

So- The goals for the next few months of my life. Grow closer to God. Rediscover grace. Deal with phobias that are actually suppressed tragedies. And LIVE THIS LIFE TO THE FULLEST :) Loving God and Bringing His kingdom!

This New Weird Wacky World

So. College. Its New. Its Weird. And most of all, Wacky. My friends keep asking me how I am liking it? How my classes are? What in general, is my opinion? AND-truth is this, I have no idea. This whole college thing is hard to grasp. Its all so very.........new. I do pretty much all my homework on a website, which I have never done before. I go to class 4 times a week, which I have never done before. Most of the people at my old school I knew by name, which here- I know like 10 by name so far! New. New. And New.

:) I mean, dont get me wrong- New-ness is awesome but it is also scary all at the same time.

Just call me Miss Healthy

Wow. Its been a while. What new stuff has happened? Well for starters-summer has come and gone. And with it- it brought newness.

Its hard to describe where I am right now but this indescribable place is filled with:happiness, joy, and health. Ive had a new label lately- Healthy. Every decision Ive been making now a days seems right, seems like I know what Im doing, and seems perfect. I am healthy. If you had asked me 8 years ago if I would be in this place, the answer would have been NO WAY...and then i may have laughed in your face. But truth is, im here and here is a beautiful place.

What inspires this blog?  A friend of mine, Steph and I had lunch a couple days ago and apparently something I said gave her hope. something I, Me, Rebecca Odders- did gave someone else hope...

sooo....Just Call me Miss Healthy.

Piles

Piles of crumpled paper by my side
Written words I tried so hard to hide
Not really sure how I feel today
So my pen will keep writing, writing away
     Confusion in a moment
      Pure Love the next
     Then it becomes Sadness
     When you left, you left me a mess

Finally getting out how I feel
Took way to long to open this shut seal
Time
Memories I need to recreate
I better start now, no idea how long it will take

Piles of Love notes by my side
Like the moon, romantic with the tide
I'm sure how I feel today
But telling you would be mean, so go away
     Confusion in a moment
     Pure Love the next
    Then it became happiness
    When you left, you took the stress.

These tears turn to Fear

Fear turns into not needing you near

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Too Busy

In life right now, I am way too busy!
This week I am studying for two midterms, taking three tests, and writing two papers. (one of which is ten pager) I always thought I was good at managing my time, but this week I feel like I am not. Today is Wednesday and I still have 3/4 of my school to do.
Last night-
Last night I had a terrible fight with my boyfriend. I have been dating this guy for almost two years and I would love, love, love to date him for many more years (maybe for life :) ) The hard part about it is that I tend to freak out and make little things seem very very big.

So this weeks goal: keep my head on and don't overreact about ANYTHING!