A look at my heart!

One of my friends once said, "I wish I could visit my own funeral." I laughed at her instantly and jokingly asked "why?" She went on to explain that if she could visit her own funeral, she could see who she has had an impact on in her life time. I was thinking about this conversation again tonight. Have I done anything in this life to help other people?  Right now- thinking about it, I feel like I haven't. So much more can be done.

Sometimes I think about the past...how my life used to be and then I think about it now?
I used to have so many people coming to me for advice, I used to have people want to talk to me all the time, now- I don't feel like that. I have a few close friends...but i don't feel that "need."
These people used to come to me with problems...things they wanted advice on. They knew my life was put together and so they wished for advice. Now- I guess they can see the stress I am going through and because of that they choose not to come to me. something needs to be done! but what

GROWING UP!

"Maybe this time, For the first time
Love won't hurry away
He will hold me fast
I'll be home at last
Not a loser, huh
anymore like the last time and the time before"

 I find myself singing this all the time. Its amazing! Its all about believing again, which i feel should be my goal for this week! 

 

 

Hide N seek

Hide n Seek!

(verse)

I close my eyes, and then count to three

Then look and search and see, if you’re hiding from me

You say your not, that’s clearly a lie

Your no where to be found, from here to the sky

(verse)

I still will look, until I find

The one, who got away, left me there on display

I search the sky, all down the street

The place I left out, he was all a long, the thing that beats

(chorus)

If this is hide and seek

When my eyes are closed

I have to trust you won’t leave me

Its just a game- in which you decided I’m the picture

And you’re the frame

(bridge)

Next time you decide to play, I’m the one who won’t stay

I’ll leave while you count to three, then you can go on a searching spree

playing it "cool" style!

So this week is the play it "cool" week. I have decided to try and live this life in a manner of "coolness." What does this mean?      Well, lately little things have been bugging/hurting me and normally I pounce right on them, telling the world why it bugs me but not this week. This week I am simply-cool.

"Does this bother you?!?!?!?!" random person in my head says to me!
"Nope. Its cool," said becca, back to that random person.

This is how I am going to make it through. I am going to put some control on my feelings...

here it goes!