A life over run!!!!

Tonight I was heading home from a long day of cleaning basements and acting out tragic Tales of friars! I went into this kinda shady gas station, gave the clerk ten dollars, and went back to my car. I then hopped in my car and drove away. It was about a mile down the road that I realized I never actually pumped the gas into my car! :P I turned around, sped (alot) back to the gas station and was relieved when the ten dollars hadn't been used up by some other costumer.

The other night my family and I sat down for a nice dinner. We then had many different conversations before landing on an important one, the one about my career choice. I have been having trouble deciding between early childhood edu.and cosmetology. I want to do cosmetology but the rest of my family wants me to do teaching. They think Teaching is a better paying job, which they are right but Cosmetology costs less and is something I can quit and pick up again through-out my life. I really wanted to take a church poll and have everyone else decide what I should do for the rest of my life. I find that some-how not happening!

Get to Know me!

So, I am a person of habit and routain. I hate when this changes or something happens that keeps something from happening. Every Sunday is nap day! Every Monday is Towle. Every Tuesday is babysitting. Wednesday is cleaning the barn. Thursday and Friday are always stay at home and work really hard on school. I do not mind if the days get flipped around but I like to know about it ahead of time. This is jst COD to a certain degree.

Next thing you should know about me is that I have a crazy imagination. I do. The closet down stairs has a spider that is 6 feet tall with blue razor sharp fangs!!! So be careful!   These are the things that make me, me. I won't change them and I won't let anyone walk in and try to change them!

Milk and Cookies

I have been listening to this song that has this amazing line and that line is this "Its the Elephant in the room and we pretend that we don't see it. Its the avalanche that looms above our heads and we don't believe it."     I love these lyrics. They are amazing. So many things in life are like this- We pretend were ok. We pretend things are better than they really are. Now please, don't just pretend I am a teenager that is over reacting. I do, do that, but not this time. This time I am trying to be serious with you. Is there an Elephant in your life, an avalanche that right there and you try to pretend its not? I know I have some.

This week one of my assignments for school is to write a reflection paper about a worldview. I have been thinking and thinking about my worldview and what that actually means and I came up with this, this will I am going to write my paper on. Our bodies hope and seek for a higher power, something that makes sense. This is could be the true God, false Gods, or materials but in the end, everyone knows they need something to believe in, something to hold on to... so when they realize the elephant in the room, it makes it not seem so bad since they have a bigger power to look up to. To protect. To love. To hold them!

whats the point?

Whats the point of writing a blog when hardly anyone reads it?
I  cant answer, I really don't know the answer.
My therapist said it was a good idea to write if it made me feel good so I will.

Today I cleaned the Barn (place where i work) for 5 hours. I am sitting here now feeling
like i broke me back, broke it right in half.

People ask me all the time "why I do not tell my life story?" Those that know it, know
that it could really help people out, but I guess I don't want to be seen as the girl who is
"weak" or be the girl that people "pity" so for a while longer...Ill keep it all inside.